I actually I’m feeling sleepy and tired. I have invested my time, sleep and effort for a person romantically, and to my face, that person is not feeling the same way about me. It just sucked. It drained all my reserves of energy and stamina to surpass supposedly greater battles. But what I realize in the experience, was to just accept and let go. And that I completely chose to be in that situation. It is a choice. So I partly did that on purpose to myself. The good thing is I had the courage to ask and confront the person so that the issue may be resolved right there and then.

My closest friends are the very best. Since I’m going through this, it is a relief to have them in my life. They are my confidants. My rocks. My precious ones. So what else can I say? and to share too? I just wanna let it all out for someone to know. Coz this is not on me anymore, it is for the world to witness, cultivate and to learn from.

I thought I already know stuff about relationships, well I have to think again. It is painful, loving, accepting, understanding, compromising, enlightening, learning and forgiving.

But the irony is, I thank that particular person because that person is one of my greatest teacher. I learned a lot from the experience and from that person as well–that to put yourself first, to set boundaries, to make time for what really matters and what are your priorities in life and to stand by it until the end.

Every one of us is completely eligible for moving on. That I know for sure. My realizations are people are dynamic and ever-changing. And people should be treated with utmost care and attention. As well as they really don’t know how much they are capable of influencing one’s life– that being who you are is a gift to another person by sharing your thoughts, feelings, and experience.

So, in the end, be welcoming, don’t be too hard to yourself and to others. Be soft but firm, stand strong but let yourself dance with it.

And as always, I’m with you through peace and love,

Malen