Me and my Diary

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I actually I’m feeling sleepy and tired. I have invested my time, sleep and effort for a person romantically, and to my face, that person is not feeling the same way about me. It just sucked. It drained all my reserves of energy and stamina to surpass supposedly greater battles. But what I realize in the experience, was to just accept and let go. And that I completely chose to be in that situation. It is a choice. So I partly did that on purpose to myself. The good thing is I had the courage to ask and confront the person so that the issue may be resolved right there and then.

My closest friends are the very best. Since I’m going through this, it is a relief to have them in my life. They are my confidants. My rocks. My precious ones. So what else can I say? and to share too? I just wanna let it all out for someone to know. Coz this is not on me anymore, it is for the world to witness, cultivate and to learn from.

I thought I already know stuff about relationships, well I have to think again. It is painful, loving, accepting, understanding, compromising, enlightening, learning and forgiving.

But the irony is, I thank that particular person because that person is one of my greatest teacher. I learned a lot from the experience and from that person as well–that to put yourself first, to set boundaries, to make time for what really matters and what are your priorities in life and to stand by it until the end.

Every one of us is completely eligible for moving on. That I know for sure. My realizations are people are dynamic and ever-changing. And people should be treated with utmost care and attention. As well as they really don’t know how much they are capable of influencing one’s life– that being who you are is a gift to another person by sharing your thoughts, feelings, and experience.

So, in the end, be welcoming, don’t be too hard to yourself and to others. Be soft but firm, stand strong but let yourself dance with it.

And as always, I’m with you through peace and love,

Malen

 

 

 

On Continuum: Leading the Life that I truly love

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So where should I start? Please tell me. I love the holds of fear, it makes me unfathomable. I’m not saying that I’m fearless but I must say that I did go to hell and back already. And enough of hell. Let’s go to topics like inner peace, quiet, meditation, morning routines, love and relationships. These are few of the stuff that I really really, I’m dying to tackle. I could go on and on about this and I will never get tired. I am right now in a very good place in terms of mental health. I have an enriching relationship with the people I love. I believe I’m in service many and I love that feeling. It’s like I’m imparting my God-given talents to anyone I come in contact with. So, to cut this short, just keep going, okay? I want you to promise that to yourself. No matter what happens, I’m with you through peace and love.

Malen

What Partial Freedom Tastes Like

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I am partially happy, fully awake. I would want to be of under no-obligation whatsoever. Although for sure that I am, because I am a responsible person, at the very least that I know. I would want to be famous in terms of being a role- model for young, ladies of my age. I wanna impart to the world how I am dealing with Depression, so that they can learn from me, thus they can avoid my failures and setbacks. There are tools that can manage this case, like having a meditation App through your phone. I am personally using the Calm App, a great tool that makes me sleep like a baby, meditate at my own pace or just listening in the background while I’m concentrating on crafting this valuable stuff. So what else, I am also partially happy to say that I don’t have money issues now unlike before that I have really struggled almost half of the time. I now know the value of living below one’s means, to save up and what I’m working on now–to invest. I’m on my way to that path now. Eveything is smooth around that course. I am not just smart and wise but firm and humble all at the same time. I know when to say “no”–the very powerful way. My dream is to be interviewed by very powerful people without me being stalked and tied-up. I know how self-care makes me a Queen. And wouldn’t let anyone treat me like a rug. I know great Mentors– you can start listening to Oprah, Tim Ferriss, Tony Robbins, David Bach and Rachel Hollis. Because those are my mentors and because I believe that you are the average of five people who you most spend time with. If I will re-do my existence, I will put up my own podcast, intrrview many thought leaders and being of valuable to tons of people through self-improvement. I must give emphasis on self-care or at the highest– self-love because without it, and might I add — to honor God or at least be spiritual because without it, nothing is useful and nothing matters. You must figure out your purpose to this world, your mission the soonest so that the earliest you do that– the earliest you are to self-actualization and freedom. Also, morning routine is very critical. You must eat healthy foods for breakfast, meditate and pray, set your intention for the day, do journaling everyday. Enrich your relationships–especially to your family. You also have to go to therapy so that you can release the holds of fear by letting it all out through that fashion. If I may die now, one thing is I know for sure–that love is everlasting and peace is what it makes it last forever, because remember: if you aren’t at peace, you must have decided wrongly according to Oprah and Iyanla. So here, Im always with you through peace and love,

Malen

Please Help Me

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Some time 2016 up until 2017 I know for sure that I am being stalked and worse, being bullied and humiliated publicly. And I thought that it was gone, they came back to do it to me this May 9, 2019 until present. They are a group of people. There’s a broadcaster in the national TV. Then there’s an event speaker at CCF. And the next two came from my previous work. I know for sure that I am being followed through radio frequency, they have a way to read my thoughts, thus invading my privacy. My work, my family and relationships have been polluted by them. They throw actions and words against my sexuality, pointing that I am one of the LGBTQ community, when I’m not and never had been into a relationship. I only had one boyfriend before sometime 2012. I believe that their motives are to prevent me from having a relationship with anyone because they are so obsessed with me. It has been super stressful, this is by far, the most horrendous that have had happened to me. I couldn’t get through them because they wouldn’t cooperate personally. I came back to my Psychiatrist all because of this. I must say and I will say this unapologetically– they are a pain in the ass. Ahm, all I want is my privacy be given back to me. And my freedom with doing things in my daily life without their shackles and harsh words and actions. If anyone can read this, please reach out to me because I feel like I’m being held hostage when I don’t deserve even a bit of it. Please help me to get through them to arrange a meeting for me to resolve whatever it is that needs resolution. I’m totally stuck in the mud. I need proofs and evidences that they are really doing it to me but I don’t have money yet to hire an investigator. Please do help me. I have already cried a lot and told my apologies to them through my mind because they can read it anyway. But still they have been stalking me. I am looking forward for the day that I am free again and I have completely regained my dignity and sense of privacy. To my stalkers: please stop it, I’m begging please. I don’t want to play games with anyone of you. I know that there still light in your hearts, and I’m knocking sincerely. Please let me go. May God bless us all.